I just ranted out loud to my wall.

I close my eyes and feel whatever I think I feel and realized that I cannot tell what I feel. My eyes shut hard as if I'm trying to create the colors in the darkness that I do when I'm bored. I do that. And then I open my eyes and hear the ringing you hear in silence and think of how much I'd like to be next to someone. Subtle feelings of aloneness.

dwindling

We are kindred spirits, you and I. You said so yourself actually. It made me feel really good. I think the reason for that was because it's true. Genuine thinkers of the same mind but are not afraid to have differences in opinion. And I will be sad because you are leaving soon, and the string I thought might have been there will be tangled in a mess of knots and bows. I hope I can see you. Just please don't change too much because I adore you in a differently strange way. Or maybe you could just not leave.

The Answer

 

So watch your step or you might fall

You act like you're a know-it-all

Yeah, I used to do that

We can read and drink cinnamon tea together. We can enjoy silences  and midday talks. We can watch a dozen movies until we fall asleep. We can go outside to star gaze and listen to 40s music. I could listen to you play and sing for as long as I can. It would be a nice life, don't you think?

I love Edgar Allan Poe.